I am so tired of being with my husband 24/7.
I work with him (same training class and all)
Live with him (obviously).
Sleep beside him.
I loved it at first. We were so sweet and all.
Lately it has been different.
He's always nagging me with my spanish.
He always commands me to do this and that.
He's a nagger and I'm so tired of hearing those things from him.
I know he means well. He's pressured with money problems (reason why I'm working now too). He's pressure sa work (na baka matanggal kami etc). I feel him, and I am pressured too. But that's the thing. I don't nee him to pressure me. I'm pressured enough. Kung alam niya lang. tas dadagdag pa siya. Tangina mamamatay na ko sa stress neto.
Ang tendency tuloy naghahanap ako ng de-stresser sa ibang mga bagay. na imbes na together, masaya kaming dalawa (enough as de-stresser na), hindi, kasi mas lalo siyang nakakastress.
I actually feel scared with the rate we're going now. I don't want to hate him. I don't want to associate him with stress. I don't wanna live my life like how y mom does, na takot lagi kay tito bob, laging ineexpect na magaaway sila pag magkasama sila. laging defensive. kasi gnun na nangyayari rin eh.
Pls help me God....
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