Taray to hubby

I've been mataray lately to Manny. I don't know why. Maybe coz he's been home for long stretches and I need more alone time? Haha! Just a guess. Lol. Maybe coz everytime I see him I get reminded of the pressure of learning to speak spanish. Yeah, I guess that's it.

The First. Drop it all

First post on my secret blog.
No one can read this, so what can I write. hmmm.

Drinking wine alone. No, I'm not sad. Just ALWAYS stressed with the mommy duties thing. How I wish I can just let go and do nothing, and sleep late and wake up late. Go to spontaneous beach trips. Go when I want to go.
I am happy but sometimes tired. To be honest I'm not even a perfect mother and wife.
I have been known to wakeup late. skip breakfast for the family.  I have a dirty house most times. I play  DVD for my kids, so I can sleep in the afternoon (sometimes). I almost always forget to give their vitamins.
When I mad, I normally shout at my kids (which I feel guilty for right after). I'm not perfect, but I'm not the worst. Maybe in time, I'll get better at this. In time, I'll get used to the routines, schedules, etc.
 Myabe I just need a vacation, and then I'll miss being a mommy.